I miss my monthly visitor or What’s Up with my Body? or TMI

I still don’t have a monthly visitor to call my own.

Girls complain about this thing their whole lives, so you think I’d be happy not to menstruate, BUT I’m not.

All my blood work has come back positive, and the same with that lovely pap smear, and yet 4 months post miscarriage and D&C I still am not back to normal.

It’s so frustrating to wonder if something is wrong with your body, and to have a doctor basically tell you it is very strange that you haven’t menstruated yet, and to basically have NO answers.

I turn 35 in four months, and at this point the best I can hope for is a “geriatric pregnancy”, but with my body not even showing me it’s doing anything at all in terms of ovulation I find this to be very concerning.

Am I Lena Dunham?

Women’s reproductive health is a weird science.  They keep telling me that as long as I have ovaries I will be able to have a child by some means, but when they tell me “by some means”, I just hear dollar signs.

As a white middle class very well cared for woman, I am thankful I have the ability to keep going to the doctor to ask questions, but damn it, can I just bleed already?